Ms.Spoiled/ Daddy's Lil Girl

Well I actually hate having to post a super long post on NS right now cause once the thoughts come they end up storming in my head like a Tsunami...let me see getting there on the 1st day was a disaster, as usual the people there were no help...when I called them and ask for direction they ended up asking why I was going there and if I was going there to report myself in and if I was there by postponement...Well DUH! Just give me the direction to get there already!! Then when I got there I felt that it wasn't that bad...until I went to got ALL my clothes and shoes at once and my dorm wasn't open yet and I had to drag all my belongings and uniforms there and trust me it's SO FAR FROM MY DORM!! Till I hurt my arm and couldn't sleep well...And I skipped lunch...And the nightmare begin after dinner and when it was time for shower...O-ALL-THAT-IS-NOT-HALAL-WHAT-THE-HAM! The bathroom is so... ... ... I burst into tears when I could get a vacant cubical to take my shower! The drain was clocked! So there was this mini 2inch pool of gray water+dirt+bug+hair....yup...

And *smiles, with dangerous look in eyes* I want to kick everyone who says they stuffed you with food and whoever who gain weight during NS! Are you kidding me?! Seriously! The food... = Chicken...so far only fried in different styles/fish(more like one day fish the next day chicken), fruit(so far..I've seen papaya,banana and honey dew, vege(either half cooked or over cooked or old vege(yellowish leaves)), some sup which contains bunch of stuff I'm too lazy to identify or curry(only serve one of each at a time). Can't get much decent sleep..not a surprise...And the place is ridiculously HOT! And they want us to be COVER UP! And all my uniform tops are L size! When I fit perfectly fine in an S or an XS! And one of the shoes is so uncomfortable even the girls I met complain their feet hurt as brutally much as mine! the toe area is tight but the back is so loose you can't possibly run in it without loosing your shoe.

But so far it's the same routine...
5.30 = Wake up...Shower(if your crazy enough to take the cold)...exercise/kawat kaki(so far been skipping due to insane gastric! the people don't understand how gastric works! It's not how many times they feed us! It's eating at the right timing for one with gastric! If I wake up at 5.30 I have to eat something before 6 or I'll get major gastric!), breakfast..rush back to dorm..change, go to some self-help class..break...class again..lunch...change...listen to some talk...OK..i suddenly can't remember what's next haha...

Fact is I may complain about it in my blog right now..but Wing Tsun is right..he knows I have insecurity issues..which I have no idea how he knows! Damn you Wing Tsun! Going to Khidmat Negara...it definitely showed how lowly I see myself and how spoiled I am and how I absolutely fall flat on my face under pressure..And yet I am some how surprise how I can somehow manage to bounce back up on my feet...at first when I laugh within my newly found group of friends which I have quite a hard time communicating as my mandarin ain't that good..but it's OK..I laugh with them but it was all meaningless and empty and I laugh cause I should laugh...but on the 3rd day I actually didn't feel that empty...I know I'll get use to the place and there be a lot more activities and I should try them out no matter how stupid I may look or how ridiculous I may preform the stuns...And even though I still feel that the whole Khidmat Negara is a serious waste of time and it's not a waste of time even though they pay me RM450 after the whole thing...I mean my cough got worst...even now I sound like I'm loosing my voice...gastric is getting worst and I got cold! All in one week! Even the person in charge at the "clinic" recognizes me! But I know God put me there for a reason...

More updates when ever I get holidays and am able to come home...sorry I didn't update once I got home cause I went to the government clinic and the medic they gave me is so strong they knocked me out until today...or maybe it's cause I'm sick and I need more rest...

-THEY BANNED CUP NOODLES!!!-