What's this?

My birthday has passed 15minutes ago...they've been a lot of things going on for the past two weeks and I am to blame. My heart feels empty and my stomach feels funny. And my mouth is dry. And I have the urge to want to puke. I don't know what to do.
I can't sleep, I've been feeling down all day.
Is it karma?
I don't care who reads this; I have nothing to hide.
But I'm feeling confuse and definitely upset.
And I can't say it out cause it'll just confirm my paranoia.
When will the drama end?